Anyway, 2008 was quite a messy year for me. I don't know, maybe it's a leap year, or maybe it's me having bad lucks, I found the year quite ... messy. I planned so well early this year and somehow, I didn't get to do so many of them. I failed to return to CCF, I failed to travel (the idea which I was so excited about before) and I failed the katekisasi class in my church (I mean, seriously, how can a person fail such thing, you asked? I KNOW!!!). The thing that bothers me the most is how I got emotional and moody. Sometimes it affected many other things, like works, friends and family, maybe.
The other day as I went through facebook, I checked many of my old friends' profiles. Some of them were married, having babies or going aboard to work or study. I felt that I've been gone for so long that I wasn't there to celebrate with them (well, I did receive an invitation or two .. HAHAHA, SORRY, I KNOW!). I started to realize that I wasn't really a good friend. I believe it's something I have to work on next year. (fingers crossed!)
(5 minutes to midnight) I guess it's only fair to mention good things as well. There were weddings (Marsella's, Sandra's), babies (Shirley's and Suster Wati's, yay!), new friends (yay!) and Mammamia! the movie! (HAHAHAHA).
I hope next year will be a better year and I will be a better person. I definitely would like to go back to school, be much healthier (working out, eating healthier), travelling and be wise in spending money.
So, to all of you, happy new year 2009! Blessings.
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love)
I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
A couple of weeks ago, Yahoo!Music published the 20 most heart-breaking songs of all time. Since I'm not familiar with most of the songs that made to the list, I decided to make my own list. I haven't really yet finished it, the 20 most saddest break-up songs. If you have any suggestion, I would appreciate it.
Nothing Compares 2 U: Sinead O'Connor, 1990
Singing about a fresh break-up ("7 hours and 15 days"), the inability to move on , her self-destruction ("go out every night and sleep all day") and how everything reminds her of her lover. Written by Prince, O'Connor sang her (unfortunately) only hit that makes the world believes she just lost the love of her life.
Walk Away: Ben Harper, 1994
He sang how another day without that person and how much it hurts that he has to be with someone else. Say no more, Harper's just trying to kill us.
Still Reminds Me: Anggun, 2000
She cut her hair, she painted her room, she got a cat and a new lover, still everything reminds her of her lover. Anggun sang "Still Reminds Me" and put us all in one gloomy mood.
We Belong Together: Mariah Carey, 2005
Taken from her come-back album, The Emancipation of Mimi, "We Belong Together" suggests how Bobby Womack and Babyface remind her only of her ex-lover. Maybe its overplay has made the song not so destructively sad, still Mimi manages to make us cry a tear or two.
Okay, I will not try to exaggerate it in any way, but I can tell you this. I felt that I had a piece of heaven. It is that good. I swear, I could have it for breakfast, lunch, dinner and between meals. That tiny little snacks did bring light to that busy Thursday.
Tiny little egg-rolls.
And it will be.
By the time you receive this email, you might not be in Jakarta anymore, but I do hope that you get it. This morning, as I prepared myself to work, I was thinking about saying good-bye, complete with my puffy eyes.
As I mentioned before, can a BYE be good? I totally don't understand this. No matter how, when, where we say it, for me, it will never be good. But to call it a BAD BYE will make it worse.
First of all, I want to say that I'm sorry for all the bumps. They're not really that fun, are they? I'm glad that you still want to put up with me after all said and done. I know it wasn't easy to cope with my silliness. Thank you for being so patient and kind.
I also want to thank you for being there. I know most of the time we're together, I was the whiny one. You have no idea how much I enjoyed complaining things to you because not only you're not judgmental, you always give the best opinions. You know exactly how to say things without patronizing me.
But despite the craziness, we did have fun, didn't we? Weren't we wild at Samudera Suki then (never judge a man by his figure, I do eat a lot)? And come to think of it, I wish we met more often. There were plans that we never really had the chance to do. Didn't we always want to go to Bandung for those cheap fake Ed Hardys (HAHAHAHA)? Or Cruising around Kelapa Gading area for the thing we love the most, food?
I will miss you. I will miss those days. I will miss those three-four hours calls. I will think of you everytime I pass the street of Pangeran Jayakarta or when I'm in Pacific Place.I also think you're very brave to go out there. I think of you as an inspiration. I think I've learned so many things from you. Your bravery, your kindness, your patience and your endless support, I think you're one good man.
Last, I wish I could tie you down and ask you not to go. I hate when they use "kalau ada sumur di ladang" to describe a farewell, but truly if we ever meet again, even for a very short amount of time, I will definitely go for it.
Good luck, my friend, my dearest, not that you need it. You will do well as you did when you're here.
Anyway, Elijah as he ran from Gilead, in Coelho's book, said at one time, "It's like waging battle in vain" to the chief of the village, Zarepath once the chief agreed to war although he knew they're going to lose and they lost.
I came to realise in many times of my life, I was like the chief. I waged battles in vain and in the end, I suffered.
The video above is not the official video of David Gray's January Rain, but it does show a bit how I felt this morning. It's not even 8:00 yet (2 minutes to go), so I hope it could be better later.
Movie: Eagle Eye
Directed by: DJ Caruso
Starring: Shia LeBeouf, Michelle Monaghan
Score: 3.0 of 5.0
Basically it's about a system that control one nation went wrong. It planned, chose the right people and execute the steps to kill the government. Anyway, like many Hollywood action movies, Eagle Eye offers big blow-outs, car-chasing and totally ass-kicking actions. I guess that's why it doesn't really stand out that much.
The director of the movie, Caruso said that Spielberg pitched the idea of the movie in the 80s and failed to have the studio to produced it, because at that time, they thought it was too advanced. Many technologies that appeared in the movie not yet invented back then, but now, Eagle Eye seems possible to happen (in a slightest chance), and somehow that made the movie seem common.
I enjoyed this common action-packed movie, least to say.
Movie: The House Bunny
Directed by: Fred Wolf
Starring: Anna Faris
Score: 2.5 of 5.0
The House Bunny is about Playboy bunny who got dumped and had to find a new place to stay. In her search for a new home, she found desperate new friends, sorority sisters. Why desperate? Well, they really needed new pledges to keep the house. Against all odds, a bunny became this fairy god mother who turn 7 awkward students to beautiful princesses.
And like many made-by-Hollywood fairy tales, it all ended happily ever after.
What I like about the movie is definitely Anna Faris. She is hilarious. Those tiny little gestures she did in the movie make her unforgettable, like when she met new people and had them introduce themselves, she would say their name in a demonic sound, which actually funny.
The supporting casts are surprisingly not disappointed. The movie might be offering the simple and the most cliché advice one big old Hollywood movie could give, but it's surely entertaining.
I felt good when I left the cinema. Isn't it all that matter?
Anyway, Pride and Prejudice tells a story about a young woman named Elizabeth Bennett, the second one of a 5 daughters family. With her very obnoxious mother and a careless doting father, she lived in time where the most important thing for women is to get married to a wealthy man. Then came Mr. Darcy, a snobbish handsome wealthy man. The battle of sexes between Elizabeth and Darcy began, which soon turned into a mutual attraction.
Critics praised the movie. Keira Knightley were nominated for Oscar for being Elizabeth Bennett and Maythew McFayden just shines! (On the TV version of Pride and Prejudice, Colin Firth was Mark Darcy and he became famous for it, soon after McFayden got the role of Darcy, I cannot think of anyone who fit for the role, but him).
What surprised me about the DVD is you can watch the movie in French both language and subtitle. The soundtrack of the movie was conducted by my favorite, Dario Marianelli. His music is perfect.
If you haven't watched the movie and you're up for something from 18th century, which is witty, funny, and romantic, must not miss this one, Pride and Prejudice.
On the right side of my desk was this name board, with my full name on it, Alex Tho.
The mother cat and its babies. I bought this wood-made cat from Book Store. It's very cute, isn't it? It reminds me of my best friend, Yuska, who really loves cats.
I think my boss gave me this sticker. She has a lot of cute things in her office. II have a strong belief it's from her. It's on the bottom part of my computer monitor.
I don't think any introduction needed. So, please please please be a good friend and visit often. HAHAHA. Blessings.